A grown-up returns to kindergarten in pursuit of learning and happiness
Updated 12.8.08
What is “reschooling”?
Reschooling means reflecting on how school shaped you as a person, and choosing to take charge of your education from now on. It means appreciating the school experiences that empowered you, and moving past the ones that didn’t. I firmly believe that it’s never too late to reschool yourself, whatever your age or circumstances.
Most of us spend about a third of our formative years in school, so school must have influenced the people we became: how we see ourselves and what we choose to do with our lives. I believe that we all experienced things in school that affect our adult lives today. By bringing these memories to the surface and becoming conscious of them, we can be intentional about what impact they have on us as adults. See Why Reschool? for examples.
Are you doing this project through an organization or institution? Is it a nonprofit?
No, it’s a project of my own creation.
Why are you going back to your old schools?
My immediate goal in going back to my schools is to trigger emotionally charged memories of my education, in order to understand and move beyond them. I have regrets over the way I approached school, in large part because of the competitive and achievement-oriented structure. I want to make peace with my educational past so that I’m in charge of the way it influences my future.
My long-term goal is to help transform the way people think of education, questioning the practices in school that are often taken for granted, like grading, homework, and punishment and reward systems. I want to emphasize that I’m not in the classroom to critique individual teachers or administrators, or to gain a complete understanding of the modern educational system. Instead, I’m reflecting on the traditional way that millions of teachers and kids “do school,” and considering how this affects outcomes like character development, resourcefulness, self-management, and joy of learning. I base my writing on my own memories of school, and what I observe and experience today.
What final outcomes do you hope for?
I hope to:
* understand how my experiences in school shaped my identity
* change beliefs about myself that have limited me until now
* reconnect with the intuition and creativity that children naturally have
* fill in gaps in my knowledge and feel confident in my level of education
* provide a forum for other people to make sense of their schooling
* write a book reflecting on the experience as a whole and sharing knowledge gained
Among other things, I hope that the project helps me to be content, fully present, confident in my actions, and willing to risk making mistakes. I also hope that the experience inspires other adults to reschool themselves in their own ways, and that we give our own children the education that we wished we’d had.
What do you do at the schools, and how has this evolved throughout the fall?
I began by volunteering as a classroom aide in the early grades, but I soon decided to take advantage of the rare opportunity to learn alongside the kids experientially. I found that being “just one of the kids” brought back my own school memories more effectively than volunteering as a grown-up. As much as possible, I do what the kids do. In the lower grades, I practiced handwriting, illustrated stories, or played games on the blacktop at recess. I am, however, always taking notes on what my adult mind observes.
In middle and high school, I shadowed a student from each grade for a few days each. I did whatever the students did, whether it meant taking a science quiz, running the track in P.E., or eating lunch in the quad. In class discussions, I answered questions if called on but didn’t raise my hand, to avoid being pegged as “that creepy super-senior.”
In college, I sat in on classes taught by my old professors in Philosophy, Psychology, and Classics. I participated as I was inspired and called on.
I’m always interested in other people’s perspectives on school, so I chat informally with the teachers and students about their experiences.
How do the kids react to you?
The younger kids were just happy to have a big playmate. They fought over who could sit next to me at lunch, talked my ear off, and demanded that I tell them stories. I felt more popular than I ever did as a student.
I wrote in my post about P.E. class that the older kids tend to have a lot of questions for me, like “What are you doing here?” and “Can you you put me in your book?” Here’s an excerpt from the post:
You’d think that I’d blend in more with the older, bigger kids than the little ones, but the opposite is true. Whereas the younger kids just seem happy to have a big playmate, the older ones have a lot of curiosity about what I’m doing back at school and are constantly asking me questions. My favorite question was from one quirky boy, who approached me with a determined look on his face and said, “No offense, but are you a girl, a teenager, or a woman?” I was tempted to answer him by breaking into the Britney Spears ballad, “I’m Not a Girl, Not Yet a Woman.”
What do you write about?
What’s your timeline for the project?
I left my full-time job with Spark in June and launched right into Reschool Yourself. Over the summer, I began clearing mental and physical clutter, and catching up on what I’ve missed in the last few workaholic years. Reschool Yourself’s official duration is for one academic year. Here is an approximate schedule:
Fall 2008 - Revisiting the Past in the School Classroom
Spring 2009 - Creating the Future in the Global Classroom
Are your teachers still at the schools you attended?
Elementary: none. However, there are several teachers and staff who were teaching at the time (they just weren’t my teachers), and they hosted me in their classes. I’ve run into a handful of my old teachers who now sub at the schools, and I’ve spoken with one on the phone.
Middle school: a few. I’ve participated in classes taught by my old math and drama teachers, as well as classes taught by other teachers who were at the school when I was a student.
High school: almost all.
College: many, whose classes I visited.
I’ve gotten to visit my old classrooms even when they’re occupied by new teachers, and the physical space has triggered memories I’d long forgotten.
What kinds of things do you plan to learn?
The list continues to evolve. The main areas I would like to master are:
Technology. To me, it’s like a best friend in middle school, dependable until the sudden and inevitable betrayal. I would like to invite technology to become my faithful life partner.
History & Politics. I’m the Ugly American, plain and simple. At least I have liberal values and the desire to learn more. Now that my brain has released the individual case histories of 150+ youth and their families, it will have some extra bandwidth to absorb the BBC News.
Finance. When I hear words like “amortization,” I feel an aneurysm coming on. To me, managing money means keeping every receipt ever printed for me….crumpled in a desk drawer, weighing on my conscience because I will never look at it again but believe that I should. On the bright side, I know exactly what I bought at Safeway on 1/3/04, which I expect will come in handy in an obscure court trial one day.
Other areas I want to explore include learning to:
· grow fruits & vegetables organically
· use Adobe Photoshop and the rest of the Creative Suite
· remodel a house
· change the oil and tires on a car
· dance well, especially hip-hop & salsa
· take advantage of frequent flyer miles
· meditate for more than 10 distracted minutes at a time
· maintain a monthly budget
What are your plans for the website?
They are many. Here are just a few:
* Writing and photos capturing visiting my old schools and unearthing keepsakes
* Details about how I find and structure each learning opportunity
* Knowledge I gain from books, apprenticeships, classes, and travel
* Ways for people to post stories about their own reschooling experiences and exchange resources
How are you funding this project?
I continue to raise start-up funds through individual sponsors - readers like you! - and am in the process of funding the rest of the budget through publishing and grants.
Where will your writing be published besides in the blog?
I’m exploring freelance writing for magazines and newspapers, and I’m putting together a book proposal as I go along. If you have suggestions for writing and publishing opportunities, please email me or leave a comment.
Will you be filming your experiences?
I’m learning a bit about filmmaking as I go and am capturing key moments on digital video when inspired. I’ve found this fall that shooting an editing video has taken time away from writing, so video will be a minor aspect of the project. In the spring, I expect to film highlights of my learning experiences, as well as occasional video logs to update readers on the project. I’ve also always wanted to do an ultra-dramatic confessional, Blair Witch Project style, so I plan to achieve that little dream.
Have you read the book Eat, Pray, Love?
The book was part of my inspiration for creating Reschool Yourself. In fact, I was so energized to start writing again that I put down the book around page 50 and didn’t finish it until 10 minutes before attending an Elizabeth Gilbert speaking engagement. (I was sheepishly reading in the line for the women’s bathroom right before the talk began, feeling like a kid rushing to finish her homework before a quiz.) When Gilbert finished speaking, she’d charmed me and the 750 other women in the audience (as well as the 20 men) into wanting to be her best friend.
Have you seen the Adam Sandler movie Billy Madison, where he needs to repeat grades 1-12 to inherit his dad’s successful company?
I usually say that Reschool Yourself is “like Billy Madison, but for real.” I have seen the movie more times, and can rattle off more ridiculous quotes (“That’s quacktastic!”), than I care to admit. I’ve had Billy’s back-to-school song in my head for months now. Check out the post “Billy Madison vs. Melia Dicker” to see how our experiences compare.
Can I subscribe to your blog?
Yes, if you’d like a heads-up when I update the blog, you can subscribe through a blog reader like Google Reader, which will let you know when I post - normally, several times per week.
What if my question wasn’t frequent enough to be answered here?
Congratulate yourself on your originality and email me or leave a question on the forum. I’d be happy to answer what inquiring minds want to know.
Reschool Yourself is a year-long exploration of how school shaped the person I became, and how I decide to educate myself from now on. This fall I'm returning to my old classrooms week by week, to understand how school influenced my identity and to regain the happiness and creativity of childhood. In the spring I'll pursue learning opportunities in the U.S. and abroad to become as autonomous as possible. I'll share my experiences of "reschooling" and personal development through this website and provide a forum for readers of all ages to exchange their own. This site is a place to tell our stories about education: our experiences past and present, and our vision for future generations.
— Melia Dicker
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